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Exam,,, Holiday... Study (?)

2010-09-07T01:15:00.003+08:00

Hey all !!! first of all, thanks for checking or passing by my (this) blog. It doesn't matter if you just want to go to another blog via my blog *because you forgotten their blog address* haha i knew it..

Anyway tomorrow is my final paper " yippee "... i know i know, i have been more and more lazy blogging already...
Lim Rui Xian if your reading this, if you don't intent to return me all the $500 you borrowed/lent from me last time, then tell me straight, no need hide here hide there like cat chase mice like that, call/sms you, just to find out your sis is using your phone... "as if i believe that your sis -Yi Jun- is using your phone" or you just too afraid to answer my call... Msn you also no reply. Scare ar ? no $ return ? i not asking you 1 time return me $500 OK ?!? I am just asking you to return by installment like $50 per month or $100 per month, i hardly believe you no $ because you working in IR now as dealer. You know there's a Chinese poem which goes " you jie you huan, zai jie zai huan "
Guess our friendship only worth $500. Why i say like that ? Because even $500 you already trying to run away with it ( not returning me ) you think i open bank one izzit or what...

Ok ok, i need to "忍精" i guess... no point angry with it.

Hmm since holiday tarting... i think i need to @ least pick up something new... some new hobby etc etc to my life more colorful, and not to forget, get to know more people ! =]

Hmm it's 0135 now... i think i should start flipping tru the Database book... exam is 12:30PM - 02:30pm @ MPH... sit number 169... good luck to me i guess, i need it... haha... then another thing is tomorrow i think i want to go for an interview after my exam @ 2:30pm @ AMK hub... anyone want join me work there, i think the pay i not bad... considering $6/hr rather then $4.50/hr as starting pay @ Swenson - CWP. so i might go like Tues + Wed work @ Swenson and Thur to Sun work @ Fish & Co. Hope the time-table is personalized like Swenson...

For now i think i gotta end my whole this long post with a song... ENJOY !! =]

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SPJNWFF - Some People Just Not Worth Fighting For
James™
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World Cup !!!

2010-07-12T03:34:00.003+08:00

Hey Blog, Hey Daerious, Hey FiFi, Hey ALL who is looking @ my blog !!! wondering why am i still awake @ this time now ? 3.35am ??? because it's the final !!! Must watch !!! xD

anyway later i will update more... time to watch now xD

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OLE OLE !!!
James™
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I see Blood =(

2010-06-22T00:52:00.003+08:00

Hey !!! Bloggie... miss me ? Haha... today is my Day 3 in some country... dunno why got the mood to blog... XD

Missed my first additional lesson for C# on 18 June because of my Cousin, i am sick also that day... i had missed the second one which is on 21 June which is yesterday because... i think i had made a stupid idea - i will illiterate more about it more later - for now...

Let me try to compile whatever happen from Day 1 up to today ba Day 2 (can't write day 3 because now is only 1.44am)

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Sunday - 20 06 10 - 9 1.A2 5.B4.3.9.B0.5.4
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It is Today, in which i left my home country in search of some "get-away" from my hectic life in Singapore... my day starts somewhere around in 0515 or 0520, i think i forgotten it... went to Changi Airport T3 for some breakfast and ate what i so-called breakfast in MacDonald, the things sucks big time man... really sucks, the things are either over-cooked or under-cooked then we (me and my cousin) got in the Departure part of the terminal and went to the gate D40, the plane haven't even arrive... the plane only arrive @ around 0715... so i decided to use the free-net which is available at the waiting area there... to my surprise the first computer that i went to spoiled... so I had to wait for the guy... is it a guy or a gal on the 2nd computer to finish surfing the web.
We boarded the plane and arrive in the destination Xxxxxxxxx, we went to the counters there and "book" a taxi there which cost $80.30 to bring us to the place where i gonna "book-in" to stay... the place is nice, got a place for games, a kitchen and a bed. Just nice for i think close to 5 people stay man... so nice =|... when we were on the way in the taxi, we stop nearby a shopping complex, my cousin start intro me the place as he know the place very well... where got CyberCafes all that... till we finally feel that we need to go back to rest which is around 1200 or 1300, haha... then we rest till around i think 1700 and went off to get some dinner...

*** I should skip that happened after 2330 till next day because of some reason ***

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Monday - 21 06 10 - B0.8.5 A4.9.7.8.B0 A5.6 B0.A8.B1.B0.8
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My day started at around 0815 ? or 0900... Geeze i had bad memory man... went to a super super big shopping center there and played whole day there... found a mice which is actually cost $180 but i cut price till the shop reduce till $140... so i think it's a good catch and i got it... haha... after-all who would sell a razor mice @ such a cheap price haha...
went walking around the shopping complex then i saw blood... it's not my cousin's it's not someone's but it's MINE !!! omg... i had a bad nose-bleed... i still remember the last time i saw blood flowing out from my nose is i think a few years ago... and it's a very bad bleed, blood ooze out of my nose like water for a straight 5 - 10 mins while i try to stop the bleeding with ice... blood blood... everywhere T.T lucky nothing bad happened to me, i was lucky that the nose-bleed this time stop like 2 - 3 mins after i wash my face with water in the gents...
when i got back from the shopping mall, i had a bad sore throat, i can't even speak properly !!! omg... i think i gonna be mute tomorrow - 22 06 10 - sad.. sad.. haiz...

i think i gonna end my story today... good night...

or not....
i didn't end, because all this is hidden... so this is actually what really happened which made me skipped 2 of my extra C# lesson and took SOOOO many days off just to accompany my cousin... i guess i made a very wrong choice, after all, i am human, and i hate to say i MADE THIS STUPID choice - the choice is to went overseas with my cousin, i really hate to say i felt so... "OUT"
I think i had lost my voice totally and i kept coughing... like some dieing patient
They sleep in Air-con room, i sleep in what ? looks like a store-room to me ... i think i gonna sleep here ( in front of the computer for today ).. for now i think i go get my pillow, and blanket here so i can sit 1 corner, cuddle myself and sleep... Good NIGHT to you all... I hope i can speak again... Night!

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I'm so sorry James,
I had made a wrong move,
Please forgive me(self)
James™
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...School Life...

2010-05-24T18:01:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD !!! First of all...I had to say, this will be a short post hehe...
I love my life now... although it's stressful but it's ok... I got helpful Poly-class-mates to help me tru this barrier, and did i mentioned i had hint a barrier earlier this month ? lol... well i'm 'OK' for the time being, don't worry about me - i know who you are -

To me, every barrier is a rock to help me get up to my Goal which is to reach the top of the hill. Not to forget my best friend (?) Alvin ... i had to personally say "thanks" to him for guiding me and helping me back-on-track when i am "Lost"... I help you, You help me... together I hope we will score well... =] cheers Alvin !

Second of all i had to thank Issac, I really enjoy playing Basketball and Cycling with him. Hope we can play more together hehe... and * sorrrrry, I not really hungry during that 1 hr break, that's why i give you half of my rice to you hehe... I know you fat le... but i think you need eat more * - hehe - =x

Not to forget Jin Cai aka Daemian, i hope we can work together ! I really see our difference le, maybe if we work together like how me and Alvin work together, we will really score well ! Yes, I'm fatty, i take it to my heart, and because of that, i will change ! that will be my motivation Brother ! and Yeah, You are always my brother no-matter what !

Sorry if it's a-bit long... (:

3 Cheers to my Brother , Alvin and Issac !

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Live your live as if tomorrow never comes !
James™
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Judgement Day ?

2010-05-13T22:30:00.006+08:00

Today just sux... SUX... I felt as if i gonna break the mirror - in the toilet- after school when i went in there just to wash my face. I hate myself... I HATE myself that - I will never forgive myself for knowing someone like JinCai to be his friend... It feels sucks to be his friend... really... what is friend to you JinCai, what is your definintion of friend ? I hate living in my own world and assume that my definition of FRIEND and your definition of friend is the same...

To me, friend is someone who you feel comfortable talking with, maybe share a common interest and most important all, help each another to grow + learn or when in trouble.

I really want to know...
do you did what you define the word "FRIEND" to me ? did you ?

Most weird thing is, HuanLin tried to solve the problem by just hearing 1 sided story ?

About the project thing, you think in a group of 7 people (including yourself) and 3 people willing to cooperate with the leader while the other 3, just like JinCai, don't even show a dam interest in it while the leader is brainstorming ideas for the project ?
You think the group leader will be that free to keep on asking the other 4 of the members for opinion if by your define - ask them for opinion - if he or she want ideas for e project ?

- I think JinCai will be a WHOLE LOT happier to be in other group. He might just don't dare to voice it out -

What i now know is:
Yes they are :
Lecturer say A then you do A ?
Lecturer say B then you do B ?
Please man... this is not sec school.

If you say i am too serious to have fun around with, then i ask you, if you don't serious about studies, what you expect?
You said i think too much about the project even before the project started.
Then i had to ask you, is it better to think ahead ? is it better to "suffer" now so that you won't "suffer" later on as the deadline draws near ?
You also said, if a group who didn't plan ahead and just do the project and end up scoring maybe a few marks lower then those group who planned ahead, what did i get from that.
I tell you HuanLin, what those group that planned ahead get is the "few" points which they spent EXTRA time planning it ahead and such...

Want play around ? There's school breaks and study week to play around with... why choose study days ?
Maybe your reason is to just make life @ school spiced up abit, i totally agree with you; school will be dull if there izzen't any spice around to spice up school life.

Last, you SAID the MAIN POINT IS: "do you want JinCai in your group ?" I said, whatever/ anything. You know why ? That's how he always answer to ME, i know his respond differs from one person to another person base on how much he actually "like" the person.
I told him before in SMS that if this "chill" continues, i don't think our friendship/bond will last till anywhere in the future just like that i mentioned in my previous post.

So his - JinCai's- choice: "Don't want to be in the same group as me"

Then all i can say is, I guess you really don't like to be with my group. Oh well then, Thank YOU for spending 4 hours of your precious time on the 1ST May to meet up with us - CiEn, Hafiza & James - for the EAIRLY project discussion. I am SORRY that i TRY to get you into my PACE of study while you are not in my PACE.

Here's my song for today:

I skipped work today, because i am afraid i can't control myself and end up beating up a customer and got fired on the spot... so if the Manager or the supervisor decided to fire me just because of today, i will gladly quit, you know why ? you think SWENSON pay me high per hour as an waiter ? It's freaking $4.50 YOU UNDERSTAND ?!? i saw Shangri-la hotel, their waiter work for $8 per hour you know ? it's almost 100% more then the current PAY you KNOW ?...

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Things had finally come to an end or it's just the beginning...
James™
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Mirror..

2010-05-10T03:01:00.004+08:00

Today... Something happened... =| all the best to my knee... it's wearing off le... i can feel it... haiz... and it's 3.03am.... and i am still blogging !!! lol... actually... i did "mirror" on how people around me, be it friends/family members or those people who made me felt ""un appreciated"... actually i am gonna do this "mirror" reflection for 1 week... see what happen... i name it "mirror reflection" because, it's simple, i will just treat you back how you been treating me since the start of May... ya ? so if your friendly to me, i will of coz, friendly =] if your nasty... expect it all to return back to you this week Wahahahaha...

My days are counting (: i knew it since start of 2010... which is why i tried to... have a closer bond with those i before that day... (:

Suddenly this Q come stuck into my mind... If you are there and you didn't even talk to me or even start a simple conversation which last for maybe 5 mins or more... i rather think you sms me better... ya ? am i wrong ? - It's the same as you are not even there ! man... what's the point... I rmb Issac said before, you should really sit down and in a pvt place and talk to him lor... but i can foresee what will happen lor...

A) He will pick up his phone and start calling and SMSing other people - as he find it boring being around with me ? "that's what i felt when he is around with me alone... " -

B) He will start to walk out of the place giving excuses like "stomach-ache or what ever shit"

C) He will kept quiet like he's mute or take out his laptop ( if it's around ) and start playing it...

All this are signs... signs of " finding ways to 'run away' . " all that i read from a book... i knew it coz i pay special attention to the 265 pages of it whenever i read the book last time...

Maybe i think too much le... ar... but nvm... This week... it will be brand new me, reflecting what and how you treated me BACK to you...

Omg... my lappy is asking me to sleep le... ok ba i go sleep le...
Here's a cool Video i should share with you all before i go sleep
- enjoy -

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If our relationship/friendship continue like this... I see that by the time we graduate, we won't even be friend
James™
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3rd Week of School...

2010-05-05T18:18:00.006+08:00

I wonder it is right or wrong to know someone more... It's just so horrible how MLM can do with the bond we fought so hard to get... i dunno what is wrong man... Maybe the problem is me... Drowned by own sorrow... I wonder.... why is there such a "chill" that i feel every single time i am with JinCai, be it in a group of other friends or together Running and swimming after school...

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Will update when i get home... it's time to rush to work... it's 6.22pm !
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Finally back from work !!! i know it's late, it's 11.30pm now... and here i am still blogging when most of our poly classmates were in LaLa land le... Back to today... dunno why i still dun feel my energy being used up yet... i after school ended... i still went Running and Swimming with JinCai sia.... then slack @ home watch anime till around 6.22pm then i rush off to work... haha... there... continued from my Original. up message...
Actually, today all the Run and Swim ends @ 1.30pm sia... i also dunno why we are ending our run & swim more and more earlier le... maybe my running too really that f up le... yes yes... i dam fat, i fatty bom bom, but i did my best ( and still doing my best ) to try keep fit man... i can notice i slimmer a-bit le... i dunno is the tan which i had been getting while running without shirt after school with JinCai or.... i really trim down a-bit le... that's a good news... bad news is... my time sheet for April STILL HAVEN'T SIGN YET !!! OMG !!! i scared later they dun accpect then how ? I GGFIED ? NO pay ??? kns... all my fault ba i guess haiz... so dam bzy ever since i started poly... almost everyday - but not Wed - end @ 6pm... lol... how to sign sia...
omg it's 1.38am le... lol... i think it's time to sleep ba... or else tml @ Database lesson i ZZzZZZzZzZZzzz haha... I go sleep le...

Here's a MTV... dam cool ! Check it out!!

Good Night JinCai... i hope i am not irritating you ba =( coz i never get a reply back like: " Ok.. Good Night Brother !" or even a single " Good Night "

Onward James !!
James™
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Movie day ??

2009-06-15T00:08:00.004+08:00

Hey all !!! haha... finally found something to blog le... as title said... i went movie just now... with non other then RuiXian my long lost friend !! haha... just now watch Drag Me to Hell... abit sux man the title etc... ending also so random. I wound give 2 out of 5 stars for that effort they put in. heh...

Morning woke-up @ 11.30am+ so eairly... haha... then contiune to watch Soul Eater till i think 1pm, after that DotA with Seb... only 1 round nia he sian of DotA liao... F man... my first match of the day leah... sux... still lose somemore... f up... but nvm...

After dota... i also sian liao i go play Combat Arms, finally up rank to 2nd SSGT... woot haha... no big deal la hor haha... @ around 5.30pm i felt hungry so i eat dinner... so eairly my mum keep saying but oh well... @ around 8.30pm+ RuiXian say want watch movie @ 9.40pm - Drag Me to Hell... lol... i say tml ar... since tdy expensive, he say... $4 only... wahliao $4 big difference leah... 2 people watch today = 3 people can watch tml leah... sux... but oh well... too bad... i go play some dota liao then sleep lo... tml need run... fat liao ar!!!! still can't find a running partner to replace JinCai... T_T sad sad...

Tml really want to go play Basketball sia... but Sebas never answer my call etc... wahliao still say brothers.... when i in trouble & i called you, you never answer, how you come to help me ??? kns brother... ya only a name for you... to me you only my F.R.I.E.N.D. my only 2 BROTHERS are WeiMing and JinCai, that's all !!! i dun think you are suitable to be my brother ! SEBAS !...

Soul is so cool !!! i wanna be like him from the anime Soul Eater !
James™
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Brand New !

2009-06-02T19:19:00.002+08:00

Hey all !!! finally i had changed a skin, heh... fishes... wooo... well there's a reason behind it hehe... well ORD looo... finish NS le...
Now waiting for poly to start... @ the mean-time i am finding work/job... ytd just sented a resume, hope can get it ba... the company called me and say that they want to meet me for interview @ 4th June @ 1500hrs sia... woot... a S$*,*** pay job sia... haha hope i can get it !!! wahahaha...
Now currently playing Combat Arms & DotA... anyone still playing can jio me... wahaha...
InGameNick for Combat Arms = IamMango (IamOrange got freezed argh...)
Do add me !! if you playing !!!
About Joel's idea of organizing a chalet... i dunno want to go or not sia...
Oh ya !!! Happy 40th post !!! haha... so extra haha... xD

Time for a change... Pass is Pass - Rui Xian
James™
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Same O' thing

2009-02-12T03:32:00.002+08:00

Hi aLL !!! Hi ALL who is still reading this blog... nth much to blog, just now just registered to Poly... hope can get in ba, best is can get in the same class with Jin Cai ! haha... now had to wait le... haiz...
Recently dun feel so well, want play basketball also no mood... where are my friends ? ??? aways i ask why... so i think i should start saying why NOT ya ? why "NOT" they pangsei me? why "not" didn't ask me out? Hmm... ORD @ 12 May 2009, dunno is happy about it or what. Sad Sad....

Aready Found Someone Better then YONGHAN
James™
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Wind...

2009-01-23T21:44:00.002+08:00

Hi Hi !!! back from the dead... haha anyone still reading this blog ? i dunno... but here's the recent update...
- 2 days off to enjoy my Chinese New Year !!! hehe...
- Brought new 3/4 short

nothing much ar... just now went to Kevin's house right after book-out to get back my PSP coz i ask him to help update to version 5.0 mah... and at the same time challange DJ MAX Portable 2. Sian lor keep win me on the song Blythe ( 4B ) my best song somemore lor... haiz... then went home.

I also dunno why, everytime i felt the gentle brisk of the wind on me i felt happy, i felt as i can recall all the happy moments Jin Cai and I had spent together and still a great friend afterall.. dunno why lor... just this feeling so weird... I also felt that Jin Cai is my 2nd MENTOR lor since Wei Ming is my first MENTOR * if you dunno what is Mentor, i think you can go search Dictionary.com for the meaning... Haha... Yes Jin Cai I like the way you handle stuff, and if i had any problems i will share with you !
BTW, TOMOROW IS ALSO SOMEONE'S BIRTHDAY LOR... dunno to WISH HIM HAPPY BIRTHDAY OR Just FUCK It. since he also AREADY did that to me... ya ya i emo. i bad, i evil - [By my Camp-mate Prakaash] haha... so what if i am bad... at least i am too bad for you but i am not too bad enougth for someone like Jin Cai and Wei Ming right... Things change for the better, Did you ?!?
"You am too old to be his friend... you know generation/age gap" as Wei Ming said, i hate to admit it but this is true ! I aways find ways to deny the fact but things aways turn out this way...
I am tired now le, tomorow if i no events, i WILL find myself EVENTS... Time to Dota Awhile then ZZZ hehe... Nitez And thanks For Reading... Gong Xi Fa Chai ? Hehe...

Happy CHINESE NEW YEAR MY MENTORS !
James™
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New Blog New Look New James !!!

2009-01-14T21:07:00.003+08:00

Hey All !!! finally... Almost done my Blog le... 98% done ... wahahhaha.... what's remain is still the 6 Pictures i need to put !!! lol... Yeah yeah nth much to update lor... went camp do this do that... so sux.. skipped RSAF day gathering, pang sei friends haiz... i so bad hor... oh ya... today nothing much la... just found out that what's enemy to you now might be friend to you in the future !!! hehe...

Also i notice that Yonghan start smoking... wah sad sia... haiz... why why WHY ??? why Smoke ? stress ? Pressure ? whatever reason you gave me, there's still other ways to handle it then SMOKING RIGHT !!!
My gut feeling tells me is that nicky who influenced you to smoke rite ?!? ya so you smoke ? what about me... ? i don't want you smoke you understand ?!?

Fine fine... it's just me then, i guess i am stupid enough to care for someone who dosen't even acknowledge me as his friend... ya ya.. so what ?

O ya ya... pass few days thinking useless thing and found out that Jin Cai is counted my best friend after all.. he's good he's popular and best of all, he can be trusted... Thanks Jin Cai !

I think i should end my crap... Tml going for Running, anyone UP for it ?!? 12pm meet @ Marsiling MRT !!!

It's war Nicky !!!
James™
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New Skin...

2008-12-23T03:22:00.005+08:00

Hey all... Miss me ? i guess not... currently busy with editing my new skin... still need 5 photos... dunno where to get them !!! will get it up asap !

Running as far as i can
James™
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End of NDP... Start of NEW me ?

2008-08-23T03:24:00.003+08:00

Hi all.. It's me again, miss me ? guess not. Can't say i too busy to even update blog, - am i emo or what ? - Maybe Sebas said was wrong, we are not a group of SACKERS but a group of emo-list... that's what i think...
Just recently i find that why had a phone while it won't ring once per day or even at least receive least one SMS in day ? pointless right...
{maybe i should cancel this line or just grab a Pre-Paid card to replace this SIM card which i paid monthly $30}

Why i am mid-range rich and don't had outgoing friends to ask me out...
{maybe what written was true -It's either you are rich and no friends or you are poor but got many friends- }

Wanted to go running this afternoon also... but look what happened ? it RAINED... !!!
GoH trainning is over for me... the last day was 28 August and i abit low on moral le... since my goal is to go for the NDP and appear on the TV ( which i had made it )...

Things that happened today:
- Took 1 day off just to rest @ home
- 4 Things happened in camp which i miss out the "fun"
- Can't seem solve the PunkBusterB problem
- Try till tu-lan and went watching Naruto Shippudent 72 online
- Went Bukit Panjang Plaza with mum to ask for the price but end up go the library and eat a very expensive dinner...
- Brought a psp "condom"
- Took taxi home
- On the way mum keep saying that " That time Yonghan follow you like your di di" in chinese, she even asked : "How is he now, still got contect with him ?" which i didn't reply the question and skip to next topic
- Finally get to solve the PunkBusterB problem and played till now... 3.46am

That's all happened today... oh ya 1 more
Later @ bed thinking back... that : "why am i such a jurk, expect things that can't possable be true"
am i a jurk or not you decide ba... me is like that lor... hmm thinking of earning $$$ but how ? now in NS... oh ya about NS... i just promoted to LCP which had a increase of $20 in my pay lolz... so what... got money no friend(s) still a saddiest after all...

Lastly... thanks for reading all my trash... i think i should delete this blog also since no-one's reading( or maybe i am wrong )

Everytime i think of YongHan.. i feels like there's a Golden Dagger is aready pierced tru my heart that i tried to pulled out
James™
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Sick Sick and More Sick ! 14 Days to NDP 08 !

2008-07-27T02:21:00.003+08:00

Arr... First thing... Been sick for 1 week le... think my condition getting more and more worst le... sad... "gotta see a doctor" is what been told from all the people i know ( even my mum ), should i ?? it's been a new record liao... 1 day nose bleed 3 times... draining my blood like free... then voice break for the [3] time again... cannot talk + cough + running nose + some suspected internal bleeding. This all sum up to 1 sentence: IS THIS THE END OF JAMES OOI ??

Now is 26th July le... and i still can't get my mission accomplished... Holy S**t nose bleed again... great... 15 more days to NDP 08, 2 more Trainning, 1 More Preview...

Here's a youtube video of us marching... if intrested go search "NDP 08"

The Game is On... Are you in ? hehe

Is this the end of James Ooi ?
James™
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NDP 2008 ! 21 more day !

2008-07-20T21:58:00.005+08:00

Hey Hey!!! It's been sometime i blog le.... nothing to blog... bleah... so buzy with NDP Trainning, then when i got time my bros cannot go out... so sad... when i am bzy they are free... sux...

oh ya finally found something...

Hmm.. when surfing around my brother's blog... i found this in Sebas de blog... so i just spent some of my time (since i was so free nothing to do) doing the Quiz... here's the result... Links on Sebas's blog

You Are 24% Spoiled

You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.

Your Gemstone is Emerald

Balanced, liberated, and peaceful. You bring luck into any situation.

Your Worry Factor is 53%

While you're not a worrywart, you worry more than you should.Maybe you don't have enough to keep your mind occupied at times...Or perhaps you've trappe d yourself into some bad thinking patterns.Try to worry less and enjoy life more. There's no point thinking about things you can't change!

You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group...You're always up for a good time or conversation and you stick with your friends no matter what, You may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

Your Mind is Purple

Of all the mind types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.
You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

Sagittarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

Your playful nature brings out the happy inner-child in datesYou're willing to take risks in love... and reap the rewardsYou've got a killer sense of humor that gets talking with any hottie you meet

Your negative traits:

Sometimes your sarcasm comes off as biting and abrasive. You can be brutally honest, tactless, and truthful even when it hurtsYou're such a free spirit that you find it hard to commit to one person

Your ideal partner:

Someone high energy who will pick up and out with you wheneverIs creative and fun - thinking of new adventures for the two of youIs bold... and not afraid to tell you "I love you" early on

Your dating style:

Unpredictable. You never know how the night is going to end up.

Your seduction style:

Daring. You're always pushing to try something new in the bedroom.Full of imagination. You've always got a new fantasy you're dying to try.Spiritually driven. Sex for you can be an other-worldly act.

Tips for the future:

Realize that while freedom is great - sometimes a stable relationship is better.It's not all about you. Focus on your partner's needs every once and a while.Make up your mind about your partner, and stick to it. Your fickle will ruin things otherwise.

Best color to attract mate: Purple

Best day for a date: Thursday

Those that are Bold is i think is true... and Last but not Least... thanks To my BRO Sebas ! haha...

NDP 2008 !!! This Will Be The DAY ! The DAY That SOMETHING HAPPEN !

James™

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NDP/SAF day training... wootza

2008-06-18T23:32:00.003+08:00

Hello all ! been missing for some-time, miss me ?? lolz... looks dusty here erh
*wipe away the spider-web*
Been wondering why i am so busy ? haha i will tell you all ba... It's time for me to fulfill one of my dream since i was 7 years old ! That is to join the National Day Parade as a Guard of Honour contigent, wearing the No 1. uniform (which most people in their life NEVER get the chance to wear even once) and best of all seeing Mr. President so upfront ! soon i will be posting the pictures... haha....

Oh ya... once again thanks to PH + JacQ for inviting (o.O) me to their class BBQ last Sunday... althought i can't stay and enjoy it till late at night... but every moment i spent there was fun ^^ haha....

Hmm been quite some time didn't do this kind of quiz le... let me try it out ( & for my god-bro Yonghan )

------------ Start ------------
List out the top 5 birthday present that you wish for:
- Er... the First thing i wish for is not a present but a request that is the whole day go out with friends ! ( I don't like to stay @ home ! )
- Handphone
- My god-bros to forgive me even if did something stupid that hurt them alot !
- Something special brought from Yonghan for my b'day present~~~
- A Slipper

Answer the following questions:

1.The person who last tag you is ...
~~darkon~~ ( i donno who's that !)
yonghan ( since he request it )

2.Your relationship with him/her is ...
He's my best god-bro !

3.Your 5 impressions of him/her ..
- Have a very severe STM (Short Theme Memory) problem !!!
- Have a strong personality like me !!
- Very smart but acts blur maybe infront of me only which i dunno why
- Very famous lor... which kinna makes me jealous sometimes

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
- Tries to cheer me up when i am down =

5.The most memorable words he/she had said to you
" I'm sorry that you had done so much for me but i had done nothing for you " ( i will never forget that SMS)

6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
I guess i will have to go for a brain-wash !

7.If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be
The bond with me ?

8.If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
Forever attempts to forget the person !

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be ...
I had made him so angry that he +pb (+pb meants public ban in Mirc but in real life meaning dun even want to see you or hear from you in which-ever way you can contect me ) on me which i hope will never happen

10.The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is ...
Ask him go eat Ramen @ Ken House with me which he sadly said it's too late le =[

11.Your overall impression of him/her is ...
Wow... i love this person !

12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
Happy-go-lucky guy or someone with mood-swing ??? i dunno !!!

13.The character you love of yourself are ...
My strong personality and my Loyality to my best friends

14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are ...
Too lazy to even motivate myself !!! i gotta change it !!! and attempt to lost intrest in something half-way-tru (if you know me well enuf to spot it)

15.The most ideal person you want to be is ...
- Tanned + Strong... no need six pac... 4 is enuf

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them ...
Thank you for all your support and care, wish to be around with you all the time !

17.(pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you - optional)(random)
1 - Yonghan
2 - Sebas
3 - Pei Hua
4 - Caspy !
5 - Wei Ming
6 - Jin Cai
7 - Derek !??
8 - JacQueline
9 - Yong Sheng
10 - Zhi Png

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
[Jin Cai] er... i dunno !!! i only know Jin Cai know his gf from friendster !!!

19.Is no.9 a male or female?
[Yong Sheng] Male of coz !

20.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
[Derek] + [Zhi Png] I dunno... coz one is so crazily havoc another is so weird sissy... erm i think i end it first before he kills me =x

21.How about no.8 and 5? [JacQueline] + [Wei Ming] No !!! because Ming had a wife liao !!! omgz !

22.What is no.2 studying about?
[Sebas] The same as what my di is studying now

23.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
[Pei Hua] Last Sunday at the class BBQ

24.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
[JacQueline] wow i dunno... maybe i should ask her sometime...

25.Does no.1 has any siblings?
[Yonghan] yep.... 1 sister

26.Will you woo no.3?
[Pei Hua] woooh... no thx man... i dun want to be in love triangle !

27.How about no.7?
[Derek] Maybe

28.Is no.4 single?
[Casper] From my view he is single... but i don't know is it the same as their classmate's view

29.What's the surname of no.5?
[Wei Ming] Ang Wei Ming (nickname: MING !)

30.What's the hobby of no.4?
[Casper] Watch TV and play basketball !!!

31.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
[Wei Ming] + [Yong Sheng] Nope... tried to link 2 diff group of friends together but failed...

32.Where is no.2 studying at?
[Sebas] Amkss

33.Talk something casually about no.1
[Yonghan] You are still young ! I wonder what you are thinking !

34.Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
[JacQueline] Nope... but i will try... someday

35.Where does no.9 live at?
[Yong Sheng] Singapore, Woodlands , there... near woodgrove there ( if you know )

36.What color does no.4 like?
[Casper] I dunno ! omg... i should interview with my friends more le... !

37.Are no.5 and 1 best friends? [Wei Ming] + [Yonghan] nope... they dunno each another also !!! or maybe Ming know from me...

38.Does no.7 likes no.2?
[Derek] + [Sebas] I think so ba... they are can get along well...

39.How do you get to know no.2?
[Sebas] From my god-bro yonghan !

40.Does no.1 have any pets?
[Yonghan] Last time got a tortoise/turtle... now i dunno still have or not

41.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
[Derek] Nope he's sexy but not sexiest !!!

------------- End -------------

Holiday is here ! I want spent time with you all but i can't !!! ARGGH!!!
James™
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Worst Day Ever + A New Chapter

2008-04-10T22:29:00.004+08:00

Dammit really hate it when you got screwed in the morning for nothing by 3... no not 3... it's freaking 5 people !!! argh !!! ...

But nvm ba... that day i dunno why i feel so *ok with all the scolding* all that... then i check out the newspaper on my star sign... well it says you will find the light within... just stay strong !!! haha... Well... New me here i come... But i wonder what move should i made first... hmm i guess i had to start my first step by learning Secondary 1 Chinese ba... yes you can laugh @ me... and wonder why a 22 year old have such a SUCKY Chinese... you can laugh all you want... but i only know that i got the determination to learnt chinese... as chinese is going to be the most important language for finding job and work in the future !!! haha...

well i guess the B'day prediction is quite accuret... my strong determination to out-last everything and anything ! I dunno how true is it for YongHan's one... well i dunno ba...

i guess no people actually read my post lor... so i think wth must i create this blog... well nvm lor... i will get myself famous... i want to be known... i want to be like Naruto !

Dunno why but it's true that day well... last time i saw yonghan is abit weird... so nvm ba... i guess our gap is getting further and further... what thing to weld the broken friendship back or... the friendship never started in the very start ! well there's a saying that time will solve almost everything... so i give it a try... and it turn out what do i have here... the yonghan is more and more not significant to me le... i last time in 4 times in a week will think of him... but now... ? i think it's like 2 or maybe 1 times a week ! Just forget it ba i guess the time is trying to tell me... as what Weiming said 2 me before... age gap so big... there will be a big communication breakdown and the friendship won't last long... well i guess Weiming is right afterall... thanks weiming and i want to thanks to myself because i made the right move... that is to FORGET HIM ! ... just like Rui Xian... bleah... talking about him... i dun even get a chance to communicate with him... haha well... i guess i starting to love myself le... more and more... maybe i'm a saddiest... so be it... till i found the ONE... i will be saddiest. Thanks for reading this passage althought it's hidden !

My Best Friend... it's My SHADOW !
James™
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Primary School Memories

2008-01-27T18:56:00.000+08:00

Hi there hi there... it's the plain O James blogging le... dunno why my instinct ask me to blog now...well i think i start off with morning ba...
Well... morning i woke up at around 10am , do the same old stuff... brushing teeth, bathing... etc etc... (you know... normal Morning routine...)
Then start to play Mahjong - online... yep it's Online Mahong... hmm just in case if you are wondering since when i started playing mahjong... well i let me see... should be around... 1st year of H.Nitec ba...
Played mahjong till afternoon around 2.30pm then i felt bored, then i went to my drawer to grab a VCD - the movie is Final Fantasy 7 ( Avatar Children )... yup althought it's a old old movie... but i still like the well defined graphic that those graphic designer did... *good job designers* =]after that... played mahjong again...
So sian today... haiz... thinking of going out to take a walk but... think again that going out alone = very boring leah... like loner... upon seeing other people with a group of friend or just a few (maybe 1 or 2) friend... makes me more sad inside... inside my heart... haiz... sad sad... so today just contiuned to played mahjong till 4.45pm or so... i think my mum knows how i feel today ba... because she ask me a few time in chinese -

Mum : "Jame, you at home not sian meah... go out take a walk lor if you want...
Me : "I know"

(after a few minute at around 4.50pm)

Mum *trys to cheer me up* : "erm, Jame why not you go out buy the Chicken Chop and anything you like to eat from the stall Botak Jones ba, i treat... *place a $50 note on beside my wallet* remember to return me the change"
Me : "you want to eat de hor ?"Mum : "we share ba, since i got cook dinner also"
Mum : "It's raining, you take a bus there buy ba"
Me : "Ok" *took a bath and wait at the bus-stop*

When i was waiting at the bus-stop for the bus... i dunno why suddenly i was like... stunted ?? lol.. was thinking of the dream i had a few days ago where my di (Yong Han) slip and fell off the staircase - which has rain-water flowing down it - and his head hit the railing and went unconscious. I dunno why i saw it... but i can't help but to let it happen in the dream... it was like... i was looking at from some stranger's eye when it happened.

Then the bus came.. the bus came so near the bus-stop and slowed down then i notice the bus came... i was like... huh ? after i took the bus to the place, i went to the 7-11 shop to get a ice-cream... yep it's Kit-Kat's ice-cream for $2.20... and went to place the order which my mum wants me to buy for her. I didn't order mine because i dun feel like eatting wor... waited for like 25 mins then i get the food... paied $14 for it... yep $14... not cheap hor... haha but worth the deal... took a bus after that and alighted near my Ex-primary school *where it had moved to another location* bus-stop... dunno why suddenly i felt like going in the primary school and take a look around when i walk past the main gate... haiz... walk across the school and i saw a few mini-hut, yep those mini-hut with was build for students to study there de... when i saw those mini-huts, it let me recalled of me when i was primary 3 or 4, studying under one those mini-huts and play card-games there after school... i still remembered that i awayes choose the big mini-hut lol... and i still remembered clearly that during recess Marcus and Teck Yuan - don't know i spelled it correctly or not... was at one of the mini-huts playing and we test each another... on questions that we find it hard... like what is 245 x 9. hahaz...

When i was walking across the few mini-huts, dunno why suddely i stopped near the big mini-hut, where last time i awayes hang around thinking, what happend to Marcus and Teck Yuan le... it's been very long since i last saw them which was during primary 4 and i want to know where are they so i can ask them out just like the good old time... haiz... after awhile i started to walk again... saying to myself, James, it's time to move on le... time had changed... it's not 1997 or 1998 le... it's 2008 le... what is past is past le... it's just good old memories which was left for you to think of...

When i reached home... i dunno why i felt sian because i had to book-in to camp tonight at around 9.30pm and start doing night duties till Wednesday afternoon... haiz...sad sad... hope i got something online to cheer me up ba... =]

As for you Yong Han, if you are reading this... i dunno i meet you again is good or bad lor after like 3 years after the first time when i met you was when you are primary 5 or primary 6... now your sec 2 le... you had changed alot di... i really had to admit... and i had to admit that i had aready forgotten you for the past 2 years or so... Till then take care di... i love you awayes...

PS: I will never forget those good old memories that i have when i was in primary school

PAST is PAST, Time to move On... JAMES
James™
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Happy New Year 2008 !!!

2008-01-01T03:44:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey Hey !!! HAPPY NEW YEAR !!! well...2007 had just passed... and it's time to reflect back what i had did in 2007 ( or what we call that, a round-up for the year 2007 )...Think Think... yeah i did pretty much this year wor... here's a summery ( no point typing a long story unless you wanna know then tell me =] ) :

- Was more daring
- More understanding with my di (YongHan)
- Put myself into the first line of danger to see the value of my life
- Learned how to treasure my blood brother(s)
- Learned how to teh gong + teh siao [ Thanks to Sgt Edward ]
- From a Boy became a Man
- Achived my private goal of crying less then 5 times within a year ( 3 times this year )
- Feel more happy with the way i am
- Have a strong judgement of right and wrong
- Improved my Charisma
- Achived Fineness in my life
- Made lots of new friends
- PoP from 6th SIR ( thanks di for coming )
- Used to the life as a RP in SBAB
- Changed a new mind-set
- Brought a new keyboard for S$80
- Went to my di class-chalet
- Went to shawn's B'day party
- Went to my cousin's weddng dinner

I think that's about all... well just now went to Suntec to watch fireworks... dam pretty ar... the feeling of watching it live and watching it on the TV is totally different lor... You watch it LIVE then you will know the feeling... oh ya... at the same time when the fireworks booms on the sky... dunno why i got the feeling that i am happy... happy till i got tears almost roll down my cheek... =/ i was also thinking why am i like that... maybe that's a part of me that i dun really understand myself...
After that saw alot of pretty girls... till i nose bleed blood le... haiz... seems like a bad Omen to me =[

I think i end here ba... all the best for 2008... My wishes for this year is only 3 things that is....

1. Finish this army smoothly
2. Hope that my di (YongHan) will treat or even acknowledge me as his Blood Brother
3. Better Health... ( i am sick =[ )

A new YEAR, A new HOPE Brothers !
James™
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7 more days to my very special day...

2007-12-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hello... it's me again, yeah same old me again... yupz... some-thing(s) never change ba i guess... like me... but wait, i recently notice something... i kinna starting to love myself le... Why ? I don't know !!! I guess I did something CORRECT 3 months ago which made me feel happy and good about myself now ?? Or because something big had happened and i didn't even notice that made me think that way... dunno why but recently when i look at the mirror, i felt abit happy... or maybe i am crazy and think that " wth is that guy on the mirror look so happy while he has so many problems kept locked away ?? "

Anyway... Happy Eairly Birthday to me, Wait... that's my first B'day greeting from my cousin !! Thanks U-wen !!! =]

Hmm if you ask, what do i want for my birthday ( like what Yong Sheng tagged in my tagboard ), then for my 21st birthday all i want is :

A Happy Birthday Song sang to me beside me by my Best Friend or ONE of My Brother

It seems easy to be said but hard to be done...

Next FEW weeks is hell week for me le... I wish myself all the best... If not who will ?

Talking... have you ever encounted sleeptalking ??? the situation where you talk during the middle of the night to yourself without you knowing that you are talking or you did it ???... well, i had this problem and was finding cure for it... if not i will see a doctor... maybe i am mentally illed...

That's all ba... till then i got mood then i tag... Finally... Thanks to those who are reading this blog... Thank You =

Wondering where YOU are where i needed you...
James™
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End of The 1 Week "Holiday"

2007-09-23T17:26:00.001+08:00

Hi all... looks like today's the end of the 1 week "Holiday" from NS... *Sigh*... some-things from so-so turn out bad... some-things from bad turned out worst... haix... sad... why must we have this 1 week "holiday" i wondered... why not just contiuned the NS so that all this things won't happen... one of my good friend told me that: "If things that deemed to happen, it will happen sooner or later... it's just the matter of time that it will happen if it is fate-ed to happen" sad... learning from the fact that he's right...

Yesterday just watched 2 movie VCD which i rented from a VCD rental shop... the first one is " 200 pound beauty" the 2nd one is "13, Game of Death"... learnted alot from that show 200 pound beauty... wanna know what i had learned, let's have a drink @ the kopitiam then i tell... haha... the other show was hmm... how should i discribe it... it's a combination of mixed feeling it's horror + trailier + bloody + more Scary lol.... dunno how to put the word... watch it then you will know ba...

Just now went to watch the movie "Underdog" with one of my brothers JC... yep... now then i know who to trust and who to "look for when i am down..." haha... the movie is intresting also... gotta watch... don't miss it... haiz... talk so much, it's almost time for me to prepare go back camp le... (Maju Camp) so.. this is the "story of a sad solider..."

Thinking back... my brother Yong Han changed alot.... well kinna... he's more out-spoken now ba... I'm happy to know that but... one thing I learned for sure... that is "Age does matters when come to making friends..." but i wondered... how come i can be so close with a 1988 friend (JC) but not a 1994 friend (YH) ... indeed that is a big age gap... but does it matters ??? to me it's not... anyone can be my friend... even a 50 year old grandpa or even a primary 4 kid, who-ever who wanted to make friend with me... i will be delighted to be friend with them... but weird... does "friend" this word come 2 way ??? like you ask me out and i ask you out ???... or maybe i am wrong... can someone please clearify with me ??? for the time being... my computer had broke down past 2 days ago... and my brother want to use this computer... till then... Take care my Brothers... and to those who don't treat me as your brother ( you know who i am refering to ) and i still treat you as brothers... Hope you will one day recognise me as someone who is important in your life... like real brothers:

"We live together and We die together"

HAPPY MOMENT HAD PASSED SO QUICKLY...
James™
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1 Week "Holiday" from NS...

2007-09-20T10:58:00.000+08:00

Long time no update le.... i saw spider-webs around... time for some clean up ba... Yesterday 19/09/07 it's a day which finally a long wait since Monday that ming go with me to eat Pepper Lunch, haha...
Morning wake-up at around 11am... wahliao @ camp cannot even sleep till so late one lor... every-time 5.15am wakeup le... haha... since this is 1 week off so i slack abit lor... after that i think no time or cannot slack le... haiz time to train up my speed, I want to win My Brother in Shutter Run !!! argh... wakeup liao play some game... then ask ming want to eat pepper lunch or not... oh ya he wakeup at around 2.30pm lor... sianz... haha... so bored at home... no one jio me out also... sadness... then some-more you all got FYE ( Final Year Exam ) around the corner, i think i better dun jio my bro go out play le till his Exam is over... for the time being... it's just me, myself and myself (again) sitting in-front of my own computer don't know what to do... Playing DOTA with ming till 7pm... then he fetch me from CCK MRT to eat Pepper Lunch at IMM... i don't expect his mum and his gf to go along de lor... but... oh well... haha... get free meal because his mum treat... actually i can pay de lor... but she insist that she treat... so i no comment... let her treat lor... me anything one... haha... while my friend is driving, his mum keep on talking about NS thing lor... sian... got other topic to talk about or not... lol.... after eat go walk around IMM till 9.45pm... reach home 10pm lor haha... then play DOTA 3 match with Ming till 3am then sleep... till today haha.... ( Sorry i don't know what picture to post )

THANKS MING FOR THE TREAT FROM YOUR MUM
James™
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All The Best Brother Jin Cai

2007-08-22T12:47:00.000+08:00

Haha... hey guys, people who read this blog, etc etc... i am back !!! haha... First of all... good luck to my Brother Jin Cai who enlist to NS today... haha... i will find time during Saturday or Sunday to chill out with you brother... haha...

I am finally back from the field camp... super tiring wor... haiz... came back from Pulu Tekong with a injured knee... so pain... haiz... walk also pain, if this is serious enough... i think i had to retake BMT or PES liao... wahliao... please dun leah... faster recover within this week because next week got another 18clik (18 km) to walk... lol... walked 12clik (12 km) on Pulu Tekong liao... super tired... life outfield sux man... food like shit... then still got to build up your own tent and drainage system... it's been unlucky for my batch during field camp lor... out of 7 days, 6 days rained... so wet smelly and cold... at night and had to sleep on those muddy place with a ground sheet... haiz...

Yesterday been to the Medical Office to take a look on my left knee... so super pain... haiz... been referred to hospital for a X-ray on the 23th which is tomorrow... at the mean time... the MO give me 2 Pain killer pills and 2 more pills just to relieve the swelling on my right knee... so pain... haiz... a few more weeks to POP le... finished my BMT life... become Opts or different rank le... haha... heard there is 1 week "block leave" after POP wor... so i looking forward to it also...

Now so sian... at home do nothing... so sian... later might go out walk walk... buy a cap or so... haha... chill out =]

LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEXT BOOK OUT - BROTHER JIN CAI
James™
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Happy B'day to my Mum & S'pore !!!

2007-08-09T14:03:00.000+08:00

09/08/07 hmm this date... is special... coz i never forget it's....
First of all... it's my Mum's and Singapore's Birthday !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM !!! haha.... hmm today started damm sicking haiz... sad... yesterday just book-out of my camp... as public holiday they give 1 day off mah... so sick this days... my voice is now gone liao... haiz... tried my best to talk but no one understands what i trying to say... sad...

Yesterday after book-out... meet Jin Cai at Causeway Point there because he say he want buy army stuff... lol... we go to the food-court there eat... then go Cold Storage there buy his army stuff... along the way i cough and cough... haiz... yesterday still can talk... now is totally voiceless haiz... after i accompany him buy army stuff... we went to TimeZone - ( arcade ) there play a game of Time Crisis 4... mi getting more and more lousy liao... last time 1 credit can reach last stage... now even the 2nd stage also cannot reach... lol... so lousy... haha...

Fast forward to today morning... so sick... Coughing all the way @ night... some-more got high fever... a whooping 39 degree body temp... haiz... then around 4am or so i sms my brother Yong Han... to accompany me go see doc... then he replied at around 6.15am... asking when... i say around 12pm... then when around 12pm liao i sms him... i think he still sleeping lor... haiz... looks like his sleep is more important then my health sad_sad...... anyway... here's mi... sick and my brothers are far too busy to check out my health... haiz... never-mind... never-mind since no one care of mi... i take care of myself !!! ROARRRR !!!!!

Went to IMM early in the morning around 8.30am just to grab the $50 voucher because my mum is born today lol... haha went back home at around 11am lor... then wait till 12pm to go see doctor with Yong Han... but he still sleeping... haiz sad... past is past le... what happened a few hours ago i dun mind... it's just that today's National Day... and also a special day because i can book-out... when you are in NS... not every-time you can book-out one leah... haiz... mi want to play pool with Yong Han also... but he going Alex's house... so i was like... sianz.... nth to do... this book-out wasted... my platoon mates all go clubbing yesterday night... but mi didn't go because i sick... now i was like so free and sian... ok la i think i need more sleep le... so sick... tomorrow go report sick... hope can get attempt B ... so sick !!! bleah... Later book-in to the camp le... what to say...

TRIED MY BEST TO TALK BUT NO ONE STILL UNDERSTANDS WHAT I TRYING TO SAY !!! ARRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! ROAR !!!!

Lying on my bed... thinking... what happens if i suddenly die or black-out during NS... if that happens, who would be visiting me when i am in hospital.... or even attend my funeral... or perhaps there is no funeral because i had made a special request to sent my body to burn and trow half the ash to the sea and half on the ground... i will be happy to see my brother Yong Han one last time before my last breath... that's my only wish... half of my property and money will go to him... the other half will be to my parents...

A SICK TIGER TRYING TO ROAR !!!
James™
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Rifle Shooting !!!

2007-08-04T15:22:00.000+08:00

Woo... so... it's mi again... booked out today at 1pm... so happy ( i dunno why) haha... hmm let mi think what i did last week....

oh ya... i know... first 3 day, Monday and Tuesday... we got the AGR + Strength Training + the IPPT ( NAFA ) test skill trainning... run here run there... push-up like free like that.... crunches all that... trow the med. ball which weights 4kg around... drop on floor = another 20 push-up more... lol... mi bo drop...haha... oh ya... drop rifle also another 20 push-ups... lol... i think i summery out better haha...

Monday/Tuesday
- 5.30am = 5BX
- 6.00am = Breakfast
- 6.30am = AGR or Strength Training
- Fast Forward to 11.30am = Lunch
- 12.30pm = AGR part 2
- 3.00pm = IPPT ( NAFA ) Skill Training
- 5.30pm = Lunch
- 6.00pm = Lecture for the ( Safety in the Firing zone for the next 3 days)
- 7.00pm = They call that Admin time ( We call that resting time ! )
- 8.00pm = Night Snack
- 10.00pm = Lights off ( Sleep Time )

Wednesday/Thursday (Test day) /Friday
- 5.15am = 5BX
- 6.00am = Breakfast
- 6.30am = Draw Arms ( Rifle )
- 7.00am = Take off to Pasir Labar Camp for rifle practice
- Fast Forward till night around 9.00pm ( Monday ) , 2.00am (Thursday)

Shooting is fun la... but hor the cleaning part is sux man.. spent 2 hrs to clean the rifle... which is SAR 21... i find a pic to post ba... they say... treat your rifle like your wife... go anywhere must bring along... zzz haha... got a few time some of the rifle got stolen by the SGT... lol... once your rifle tio stolen = 3 weeks confinement liao... where you cannot go home... lol... mi very secure my rifle de... never get stolen wahahaha... morning also got go run... run like 1.6km jog and 30 mins non-stop running... lol...

Shot at 2007-08-04

Here's SAR 21... we using... my rifle is Number F82 haha... the red color cloth covering is the Gas Regulator ... lol

Foxtrot Spartan !
James™
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Army Life !!!

2007-07-28T18:13:00.000+08:00

Yo Yo... hope you guys miss me... haha... maybe not... since before i went in NS my blog counter is 875... till now only 940+ ... that meant my blog no popular... so what ??? lol i dun care... :]

Woo... today just book-out from my 2 weeks long "holiday" chalet @ Maju camp... haha... song ar... army life so good... morning wake up at 5.30am... just to do morning BT or what you all called morning exercise.... then till 6am we go eat breakfast... then after breakfast... again... exercise... it's either AGR ( Agility Training Thing ) or Strength Training or the Drill March... etc etc... so many thing lol... fun la... kanna push-ups like free like that in camp... everything you did wrong... it's either you tio confinement ( where your weekend cannot go home ) or you tio push-ups... lol...

After all the activities, we we had our lunch at around 11.30am ??? lol super early rite... haha... after the lunch we go for lecture... super tired morning liao still go air-con room listen to lecture sure sleep one lor... then kanna punishment... nbs.... mi kanna lor... write 500 lines of "I will not sleep during lecture from now on till the day i ORD" ... write is nvm... but the time given is wtf lor... by night snack which is around 9.30pm must hand in lor... shit la... lol... but lucky i got helpful section mates aka bunkmates... lol each help me write like 50 can liao lol... btw i got around 10 bunkmates haha.... then after lecture... you know what ??? more exercise... wt...wth lor... zzz haha... then change liao exercise till around 5pm ??

Every-day exercise... dunno why sia... but it's fun la... lol... oh ya... today morning just walked 8clik or should i say 8km with the 50+ kg bag behind me... nbs... + the 3kg SAR 21 ( the rifle )... haha.... leg super tired... super cramp... sorry ar... really pain wor... haiz... my hand also... do push-ups till blisters... lol... got pic... haha... then after the 8km walk with all the barang barang behind me... we went to back to the bunks... tired and want to sleep... but wait... there's more... the Platoon Seargent ask us to do Area Cleanning + Stand-by-bed... super sian lor... 1 mistake = 5 push-ups... so total we got like 16 errors... so it's 80 push-ups... dammit la... lol... so we complain... why not change to other thing... so we decided to do jumping jacks... but you know what... it's 100 counts of 4... so it's 200 times jumping jacks !!! lol... dunno how... but we did it !!! lol all our legs all cramp cramp liao haha... ok la... now i go gamming le... so long bo game le... maybe later @ night go watch movie... haha... all the best brothers...

Shot with RAZRV3x at 2007-07-28

Blisters.... ouch !!!

Last but not least... this is my most favorite Army song...

Title = Training to be Soldiers

Training to be soldiers,
Fight for our land,
Once in our life...
Two years of our time,
Had you ever wondered...
why must we serve,
Because we love our land,
And we want it to be free, to be free... yeah !!

Stand up.... and be on your guard,
Come on everybody... do your part,
Come on everybody.... Soul and Heart....
Do it for our nation, do it for our Singapore... yeah !!!

Looking all around us...
People everywhere...
Children having fun...
While we are holding guns...
Had you ever wondered...
Why must we serve....
Because we love our land...
and we want it to be free to be free... yeah !

WHEN I AM TIRED... I CAN ONLY THINK OF YOU ALL... YOU ALL ARE THE MOTIVATION IN NEEDED TO MOVE ON BROTHERS !!!
James™
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I'm Not Stupid Too

2007-07-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

Hi hi... it's me again... yeah... today's just another day like no other... even tho it is so close to NS... left 2 more days... Haiz... sad.. sad... but what to do... all i wanted is... is for someone to accompany me... hear my thoughts... go crazy with me... for this 2 more days... but... but it seems unreal... everyone is just so busy... my dad never understand me... my mum was busy but i know the reason... my brother had more problems then me.... so left with my brothers...

First brother i turned to is Yong Han... but he seems don't like to go out with me... maybe to him... i am really a bad guy... yeah... just like in the movie: "I'm Not Stupid too" when Tom and his friend joined the gang whom they called them-self as brothers too...

To me... only those whom i found something unique about them, i will call them brothers.... like Yong Han... i found motivation from him... every-time i see him... i had the motivation to move on... he's unique... maybe i might sound like gang leader recruiting "ginnas"... but... if i am a gang leader... why would i be even be here blogging ? i would be killing someone or maybe planning to how to rob a bank without leaving any trace behind...My brain can work at 120% of normal people... so... if i am a gang leader... i will be BEST gang leader... as in i will dominate the whole SG's gang... but i choose not to... because i asked quite a few of the people from age 13 - 40 ... that i am stuck in the line... between "Heaven" and "Hell"... you might wonder what is the theme heaven and hell ... just imagine... you are neutral and there are 2 path for you to choose...

One of them leads you being a bad person... which there i will had tattoos all over your body, steal money, kill people, extort money from people... etc etc...

Another path is, it will lead you being a good person and being a good guy is hard as far as i know...

Majority of the people will say that they want to be a good person, but how good is good... i had to ask them... good till someone drop 2 dollar and didn't know... and you return the 2 dollar to the person ?
So for the minority of the people who said they want to be bad person... i had to ask them the same question again... how bad do they wanted to be... and how bad can they be ?? killing someone ? raping ? extort money ?

Back to the topic... Yes, i asked Yong Han first... you might wonder why i asked Yong Han to join my clan... but i think he rejected... he don't even dare to answer yes in normal tone... maybe i am really is a bad guy to him... Yong Han... if you are reading this... please, if i am a bad person... i will be smoking, i will had tattoos all over my body... but did you found any ?? if i am a bad person... i will talk like Casper... so i think he don't like to mix around with me... he feared me... and i don't know what i did that i made him feared me so much... how can you go out with someone whom you called brother and had communication problem with you ? it will be like... when i talk about something and ask for opinion... he just kept silence, just like in the starting of the movie "I'm not stupid too"... when their parents nag at them... they will just kept silence like they are dumb... I did like someone who challenge with my thoughts... because i wanted someone to proof me wrong... so i can grow also... please... i am not perfect... in-fact nobody is perfect... so i guess Yong Han is out

Second... i turned to Wei Ming... Wei Ming this guy is as far as i know... and i guess the only word that i can use to describe him is sophisticated... yeah he like to think out of the box... maybe not so out... i guess... yep asked him out to eat ramen with me... but he didn't even replied me... so i guess is no... never-mind then... he got his wife/girlfriend to take care of... yes wife/girlfriend is more important then me, who is just a mere above average "best" friend to him... dunno i said correctly or not... if you are reading this Ming... Thank you for guiding me along the way to who i am now when i was just another social-reject during the very first year of the Nitec class... Thank you lots Ming... i can never repay you with anything for that... i guess without you... i will still be a social-reject now.

Last... I turned to Jin Cai.... yep he's unique because he is the determination which i needed... he did run with me this morning in the stadium... no no... not only today... it's every alternate days... he is the person who i am finding to run with me... he is my determination... yep... today went running with him... then run till almost 3.30pm we went to eat @ Swenson... he ordered a Chicken Cutlet + the "SSS" set (which includes a soup of e day, a choice of side dish and a sundae) for $10 and only students can have the offer... while i ordered a Mega Burger + the "SSS" set... the picture is below... after we ate @ the swenson we went to walk around the shopping center to digest what we ate... oh ya... btw we only paied $30+ for it... you know why ?? it's because the person forget to key the 2x "SSS" set haha.... so we had the "SSS" set for free woo... after walking for around 30mins we took train home...

When i reached home... i quickly put down my bag on my bed and get my IC... to rent VCDs from the nearby shop... i rented the 2 movie : "I'm not stupid too" & "Just Follow Law"... yep i had just finished watching "I'm not stupid too" and that movie makes me wanna blog... because i cried in the ending part of the movie... some parts of it is very much real... like when Chen Cai's dad is in the hospital and the auntie who is his dad's friend scolded him and in-fact cried... i also cried at that part... it's... just so real... it's just like what i am doing to my brothers now especially Yong Han... i guess he will not know till i am like Chen Cai's dad, lying on the hospital bed and the days for his death is counting... The friend of the actor Chen Cai's dad said... " He loves you... he loves you till he don't how know to express it out "... i guess that part is very true...

I guess the movie "I'm Not Stupid too" is not fully completed yet... Tom and Chen Cai is still in the gang... i think i had to ask jack neo to finish this part... where Tom and Chen Cai decided to quit the gang and got beaten up and extorted the money from them... as i know if you joined a gang... if you want to quit... it will be a painful thing... because they will want something back...

Anyway, thanks for reading today's super long post... i had finally blogged all my thoughts this few days here... hope i will had a happy though before i went into camp which is on the 13th July 2007 @ 9 am...

Shot with RAZRV3x at 2007-07-11

The Mega Burger i am talking about... wahahaha

Shot with RAZRV3x at 2007-07-11

Is it dead ??? haha... a cat i found intresting after my run...

THANK YOU BROTHERS WHO HELPED ME LITTLE OR ALOT
James™
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Thinking back...

2007-07-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today, woke-up with the a headache and a fever... haiz.. dunno what happened wor... and before i continue... i had to say that today i expect something "great" that will happen or someone to ask me out to take a walk or so... so as to lighten my mood for awhile because of the enlistment that is so close... The reason that i sian is because, the closer to the date of enlistment which is on the 13th July... the more sian i getting... what-the-hell is wrong with me... what happened to all my "excitement" of going in NS... why suddenly it disappear... i need that... haiz... how can i get it back brother... i am so mentally ill now... dunno for what reason... maybe i thinking too much ba... but what really is "think too much" and "think too little" ?? can anyone define for me...

Yesterday my cousin (younger one) who came to my house for 2 days for the wedding dinner... did change my mood for awhile... he did kept me happy tho... like making funny jokes and those lame acts... thank you for making me happy for a moment... i like your funny jokes... even tho i had heard before the last 2 years or so... you are like my younger brother every-time when you come to my house... =]

As i said before... not many of the people i know ( including my relatives ) can be in my "special circle of friends" who i called them Brothers... currently only had 4 of them... and i am not going to name them out... you find out yourself ba... if you wanna know... because they are special to me doesn't meant the person will be special to you... haha..

Yep as today go by with the headache on my head... and a fever... i feeling so "down" ??? maybe i am emo. as some of my brother said that i am... i think i had to agree ba... today... as i said... i assume something great or someone will call me out... never-mind if it's just for a meal with me, just to go buy something or even just to go window shopping... i will be happy to be with someone that is my friend... not necessary be one of my brother... just fill me up for this remaining 4 days with activities please... at least make me feel that i am not alone in this world...

Time fly so fast... still remember... that day (which is around June) where i made a promise to the special someone that i will have a 5 star buffet dinner with that him... Maybe i'm not special to him but it's ok... Brought a Nike bag and a Slim-Fit shirt for him... from my Taiwan and Hong Kong trip...
... if you wonder what i had brought from the trip... i will list them out:

- 1 x Nike Trainer Bag
- 1 x Nike Slim-Fit T-shirt
- 1 x super cool Nike Bag
- 2 x Nike Water Bottle [ one of them is already sold out in S'pore ]
- 2 x unique key chain
- Alot of Mochi (those soft soft chewy thing)

I think that's all... maybe more but i didn't list them...

Just now just went forum for some help... but they advice (?) me to "make full use of the next few days and relax?" but how ???... first of all... i fell sick on the day that i hope i didn't... Thinking back of all the happy moments i had... i really miss those days... and it's been so long that i didn't been so down before... what to do... anyone can tell me ??? it's getting late le... tomorrow got running with one of my brother......dunno i should be happy (?) or what... bleahx maybe i am crazy... Yong Han... where are you when i needed you sad_sad....

LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE NEXT HAPPY MOMENT
James™
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2007-07-05T02:00:00.000+08:00

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Ramen @ Ichiban Sushi

2007-06-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

Today 27/06/07... broke my own record haha... broke my record in 2.4 km run sia... 1st time get 14 mins... i know i still fail... but at least i am improving... last time i run is like 20 mins ? or 18 mins... forget le... anyway... today woke-up @ around 1pm... dunno why feel so tired lor... then my best friend JC sms me dun be late... wahliao... i late 3 times dose not meant that i gonna be late aways mah... i got reason one you know... haha... i know JC de la... he very good one... learned a-lot of things from him lor... haiz.... JC... thanks for pushing me forward... really happy to know you... you are just the person whom i am finding since i was young ??? yep since young i was finding someone to train with me on running... and finally found you le... haha... =]

After the run... it's around 3.30pm ? we went to CWP to eat breakfast/lunch haha... 2 meals @ 1 time... yep that's what we 2 normally does lol... after i brought the muscle ache spray... i decided to go eat at Ichiban Sushi because got promotion mah... what $5 get rice + ramen + dumpling... add another $3 get to pick a side order and a drink ( tea or coke )... lol... i ordered Chasu Shoyu Ramen set... and JC ordered dunno what... forget le... yep we add another $3 also... he get the chawanmushi + coke for the side-dish as i get the tori chicken + coke for the side-dish of mine... the rice is ok... like plain fried rice... but the ramen... really CANNOT MAKE IT.

First... the soup was not hot enough... then the soup also too salty... wah-liao.. the chef add too much soya sauce is it... -.-... then comes the noodle... just like the instant noodle lor... sad.... so i hope that the egg and the piece of shoyu can make it... but makes me more disappointing lor... the egg over cooked.... the piece of shoyu damm small lor... wahliao... i did rather go to the one @ Orchard plaza there and spent $12 on a Super nice Shoyu ramen lor... waste money... but nvm la.. the tori chicken i ordered as side-dish is worth a while la... not bad... not bad... it cost also $5.20 ( if i am not wrong ) on al la carte... which means separate order... really... Ichiban Sushi ... really think the sushi is better lor... haha find 1 day go eat sushi... the rest all sux... not worth the try or your money man... haha.... after we eat liao we went walk around CWP then go home le... i went to bath then sleep liao because dunno why today felt so tired... like all my energy had been drained because of the running... normally i after run liao still got energy to play comp. game till late night lor... but today... bleahx... now just woke-up... haha... anyway.. take care brothers... loving you aways =]

Shot with RAZRV3x at 2007-06-27
Here's the set i ordered...

Shot with RAZRV3x at 2007-06-27
Here's the receipt

ALL THE BEST TO YOU BROTHER !!!
James™
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Random

2007-06-22T19:36:00.000+08:00

Today's title is random... totally random... dunno what to put as title... so random... bleahx... hmm... today starts at around 5am or maybe 4am for me... dammit i hate that moment... don't know why out of a sudden... my usual dreams was wiped... just like 2am - 4am is a nice dream... then suddenly all whip out... for a few moment my brain become blank... what i can see is only white... yes... nothing but WHITE... and i don't know why i felt the cold creeping from my legs upwards... just like my dead brother's soul/spirit was to going to hug me ? or maybe trying to kill me so that i can see him in the ghost realm... the first person that came to my mind was you, Yong Han... i still remember i tried all my very strength just to call out your name... and guess what... i did called out your name lots of time and i woke up breathing heavily like i had just finished running... and wonder what happened if i didn't called you, Yong Han... maybe i would be dead this morning at 5am or so... because i know that my heart starts to beat slower and slower when i felt the cold...

Before i slept yesterday... i was talking to myself that if my small brother is not dead during birth... i will surely love him a lot more then the current elder brother i had... if my younger brother is not dead... he should be around secondary 1 ( 13 years old ) or secondary 2 ( 14 years old ) this year... thinking back... if my younger brother still there... i could had spent most of my time with him no matter how stress or down or even exam is coming... as i love him the most... not like my elder brother... dun talk about my elder brother le...
I promise to you, my younger brother, that after my death... i will come find you... and most important of all thanks for protecting me all along whenever i am in trouble... i know you were there since i was 5 years old... had the feeling that someone is aways beside me, protecting me from any harm that could cause my death... i only had to confirm that you ( my younger brother ) exist when i asked our mum... because she said... if you are not dead during birth... i will be 2nd brother le... and our mum almost died when you are dead that time maybe you trying to get her ba... but if she's dead... who would take care of our elder brother and me ???
She's a great mum i had to admit... i am sorry that you can't felt that... not like our dad... he's way to bad to even have words to describe him... I hate him since i was 5... please do protect our mum too like you had protected me since i was young... after my death i will take care of you... my younger brother...

I guess when i woke-up... my mum knows because she came to my room quickly and asked what happened ? why are you screaming out Yong Han this name ??? do you want a cup of water ??? ... for a short moment... i tried to catch my breath as i was like out of breath or something... and i told my mum that... nothing had happened... yes i do like a cup of water... thanks... mum... she went to the kitchen to get me a cup of water then off to work she goes... thanks mum again for caring me so much... then after that i tried to sleep till around 12pm or so... but was woke up by the noise that my neighbour was doing... so i just on com. and played a few rounds of C&C 3 with Ming... till almost 3pm then i meet Jin Cai to go run... lol i was late because i felt lazy today tho... lazy ar !!!... dunno why... lol... but i still went for the run with Jin Cai... anyway thanks Jin Cai for pushing and run with me... i am so touched...=] it feels great to have you as my friend Jin Cai...

After the run... i was suppose to go to Wei Ming's house to play Basketball de... but dunno why lazy this bug was so fat today that i felt even lazy to go to his house to play Basketball lor... haiz... i so bad lol... normally i won't so lazy one lor.. lol but dunno what happened... bleahx... so i went home, took a bath, on com. again to play game till now lor.. almost 7pm ba... planned what to do ahead but... aways turned out that it cannot be true... suppose to work tomorrow and go eat Ken House Ramen this Sunday de lor... but Sebas cannot said he was banned from going out sia... so i think YH also not going lor... oh well this Sunday... be it alone or with another person... i will go there to eat...
I left around (15 more days + 6 days for oversea trip) to spent before i go in NS lor... so no point making myself sad rite... which is why i am aways smiling no matter how worst the things can be... but sometimes i just break-down as it was too heavy for me to carry... so from a smiling face ---> crying was no surprise to those who know me long time... till then i think i take a nap... tomorrow work le... stupid 1 day work like i am a extra just because there not enough people... but oh well... for fun i guess and to know more people... hope so... haha... till then nite nitez...

Here's the picture for today:

Know what 's the meaning of this picture ? it meant: " Behind every happy face... there's a sad story... "

I ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR EXISTENCE MY YOUNGER BROTHER
James™
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Chalet by Jojojooooel

2007-06-19T19:46:00.002+08:00

Hey all... sorry past few days no energy to blog ar... lol... anyway... last Friday went to chalet @ Downtown East till Sunday... this is a summery of what happened during Friday:

- Woke-up late
- Joel say meet 1.30pm at Wild Wild Wet entrance
- Seeing that i late, took taxi which cost me $14.50 from Marsiling to Downtown East
- Pocket no $$$
- Reached there at around 1.20pm
- Wait for 1 whole hour
- Dammed pissed-off
- Decided to call YH
- After 4 miss call he finally pick up my call
- Asked Joel to be on the line
- Tell him that i reach there ages ago but didn't see him
- He come and find me
- Bring me to the chalet
- Went to eXcape theme park
- Played all the rides
- When back chalet Hungry
- Some ordered pizza, mi ,YH and Sebas went to kopitiam eat
- Went back chalet sleep
- Tell YH & Sebas to wake-up @ 3am just to talk
- Sweet dreamz

That's what happened during e First day
-----------------------------------------
Things that happened on e Second day

- Wake-up at 3am went to the hall area because too cold
- Wait for YH & Sebas to wake-up till i fell asleep on the hall
- Sebas wake-up at 4am and joined me at the hall
- Asked Sebas to wake YH up but he sleep like pig
- Went exploring around the chalet
- Back at chalet at around 7am
- Dunno why all wake-up
- Me went to sleep and ask YH to wake me up at 9.30am
- End up the Hong guy wake me at 9.45am because he remember i need to go somewhere
- YH is no where to be seen
- Damm tu lan and call him with Hong's hp
- Ask him come back quickly as i gonna be late
- He rush back with Sebas
- Wait for him till 10.15am
- Went to take train to the restaurant
- Reach there around 11.20am
- Lucky haven't start yet
- Then know that it is 11.30am start...
- Eat 8 dish of very expensive food
- Went home to take new clothes
- On the way talked alot of things
- I break down aka cried when reaching Marsiling MRT
- Stupid YH never even say sorry, thought that his mouth sticked with super glue
- Ran home and had a quick bath and packed new clothes
- When to the BBQ
- I think that YH told them that i not going lor
- But i got go leah haha
- Brought voldka on the way back to chalet
- Joined them in the BBQ
- All the girls went back
- Felt hungry in the middle of e night and then wanna go eat but that pig ( YH ) still sleeping
- I continued sleeping

The following day...

- Wake-up at 4am just to eat breakfast ? lol ?
- I had forgive YH but i hope his mind had aready "wake-up"
- Talked to many people to get information on his classmates and YH
- Found out Shawn got outcast in their class lol...
- Heard many interesting things that YH did at school lol ...
- When sleeping again
- Talk-cock, sing-song... but no play majong haha...
- Check-out at 11pm
- Went to the chalet HQ there and wait for dunno what
- Gave YH my "sign" of saying "Never forget you, Brother !"
- Walk to Pasir Ris to take taxi home
- Home Sweet Home !!!

And Now for the Pics... A picture speaks a thousand words haha... enjoy...

All the girls + me... at the bottom haha...

Yong Han, Sebas and Issac

MY DAYS ARE COUNTING !!!
James™
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Start of Trainning

2007-06-12T18:58:00.000+08:00

Yo All... haha... i know la... no people read my post de also... haha... so today is just another day... Planned today fully liao... the plan is, morning run---> tennis ---> gym ---> hot steam ---> home but end up only go run...

Woke up at around 1pm because yesterday very late sleep... haha... woke up at 1pm also partly because i wanna run and JC ask me dun late de... haha... then i wake-up go prepare for the run... hey it's good to have someone run with you... if i run alone i no motivation to run de lor... that's why i so fat haha. yep we meet 2pm @ Marsiling MRT to run at stadium... He ask me out to go at around 1.45pm lor... because he reach liao... then we went to run at the stadium.

Oh ya... before we start running ie saw Guan Ming at the stadium also... he finished work-up at gym... i think go running on the tracks is better then running at the gym lor... feel the heat... energy... etc etc... haha... i run for a while then take a rest... then JC and i saw some students from a primary school go there train... haha... they are from athletics i guess... so young start train liao... grow up sure super good... haha... then after running, i decided to ask JC to start running with me on every alt day ( 1 day run 1 day rest ) this plan... and he agreed haha, then JC went to buy a 2nd hand handphone for $90... haha... then we went home... if you are wondering why am i blogging now... it's because yesterday too tired and went to sleep... haha...

Just now i chat with Kit for awhile and i am shocked that he is at Malaysia alone sia... power la... lol... then i told him ( Kit ) alot of things lor... then he said: "Yong Han is not worth your time for lor, if he value you as his best friend or even friend, he won't treat you like this lor "... i try not to acknowledge what he said is true lor... i try hide from the fact that he is true lor... i tired chose not to believe what he said is true but i am just once again cheating to myself... but i this time agree with him... yeah he is not worth my time. i TOTALLY agree with him... but what can i do... i asked, he said: "you had did your best but he still is a A$$ and treat this like to you"... he even said he pity me because of my effort... haiz... i felt so.... how to say... miserable ?... ok la i think i should listen to him then...

Brother, if you are reading this... please do something and don't expect anything to happen to our friendship if you didn't make any step... ar i think i will end now... Bye...

That's Jin Cai my Best Friend

LET'S TRAIN HARD
James™
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BBQ by Chio Bu..

2007-06-10T01:48:00.000+08:00

Haha.... as title said... today ( 9 June ) we had a bbq with Chio Bu... it's very pre-Birthday celebration lor... her Birthday is on the 13 June but she want celebrate now... so... oh well haha...

Today slept till 11.30am... then my mum came to my room disturb me >.< .... wahliao want slack at home till 3pm sleeping also cannot ar... haha... anyway thanks mum for disturbing me or else i can't get to wake-up and watch some episode of Death Note Anime... then watch till 3.30pm i go take train to Woodlands to meet JC lor... btw the bbq is JC tell me one lor... or else i also dunno sia... haha maybe chio bu don't have my hp number ba... haha...

After i met JC at Causeway Point, we went to eat at LJS... man it's such a long time that i didn't eat LJS.... haha.... this Monday or Tuesday i had planned to meet either Wei Ming or my brother Yong Han out to eat "Ya Koon"...that one i didn't ate since the last day of my ITE life lor... that's er... around 4 months ago ?? lol... after that i and JC went to look for his super old SDRAM... lol they didn't sell lor... maybe i and him should go SLS soon ba lol...then after looking for SDRAM, we went to a place but a mug for that chio bu lor... lol... anyway the mug is nice wor... i like the design haha...

Went to Sembarwang beach around 6pm ?? yep around there... we then slack there lor... haha talking, eatting etc etc till around 10pm ?? where most of the chio bu's relative went home liao... wahahha... that's where all the fun begin lor... haha... havoc sia... btw i now then know that chio bu's boyfriend ( Samuel ) and his brother ( Gary ) loves fishing lor... haha... hard to believe Gary is 17 man... he look like 14/15 lor... haha.... anyway after that we take taxi home... so tired now... haiz... wish that i can see my brother Yong Han again... i really miss him T.T

Me, JC and Chio Bu ( infront )

A nice shot by me at the Sembarwang Beach =]

Lying on the harbor,
Listening to the sound of the waves,
Looking at the stars right above me,
Thinking of you, my brother Yong Han.
Tears roll out of my eyes, and i cried.

GOODNIGHT JIN CAI, MISSING YOU BROTHER YONG HAN
James™
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Swimming...

2007-06-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

Hey... It's me back again... haha... guess i update or no update no-one read de lor... anyway... today's so fun... it all started with me, planning for today's activities... haha... my plan was... go my brother's house ---> go eat lunch ---> go swimming ---> go pool ----> go eat dinner....

hmm and it did went pretty... er... out ??? haha... anyway... reach AMK Mrt station at around 12pm... reach there liao still need take a 30mins walk to reach his house sia.... so reach there 1pm liao lor... along the way get a cone ice-cream ( man it's so long that i didn't get to eat ice-cream ) .... then reach his house liao... he still don't want open door sia... haha... so i flood his handphone with sms lor... lol... end up his dad came back home then open the door.... just nice as he open the door also... pengz... just then, the whole HDB block still changing the water pipes lor... so no water for him lol... so he go with me to the swimming pool... haha...
it's a 20 mins walk from his house lor.... oh ya... we went to eat ramen mee also @ AMK hub... after swimming liao around 4.20pm... ya around that time or 5pm la... dunno la... we went to eat @ Pepper Lunch... this time my brother recommmand me to eat the "Salmon Pepper Rice"... it's not bad lor... with the cheese... yum !

Haha... after that we take a short walk around the neigbourhood...and he brought a VCD... it's Final Fantasy 7 the Movie... lol... cool hor... brother... watch finish liao remember lent me leah.... i think next time you got free time you come over to my house to watch movies ba.... haha... i know how to make popcon de lor... lol... Movie-mania haha... yep after we brought the VCD liao we sat down at a bench and chat for aaaaaaaawhile lor... since the weather is cooling and not much people walk pass also... haha... we talk alot of things lor...

Haha... just a moment a go my real brother asked me want to eat kebab or not... of coz... i said ok la...how can you resist a night snack...lol... now then i know my real bro so caring >.<... dunno how to "hui bao ta" ... haha maybe @ Taiwan treat him something nice ba... haha... till then... i am so tired liao... Bye~~

AWAYES REMEMBER YOU BROTHER
James™
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Mark of New James v7

2007-06-02T15:29:00.000+08:00

Yes... as the title said... today... 2nd June 2007, is the mark of the new James... the old james died in a serious car accident today... so this is the new me... with a whole lot of new mind-set in my mind to think of for this month

A short checklist to think of/do this month:

- What will i do if YH goes the road of "Bad thinking path which i had for the comming 2 years".
- What will i do if YH goes the road of "Good thinking path which i had for the comming 2 years".
- Do the final judegement on which place i stands in YH's heart.
- Find a cure for my "Face" problem... this 3 word is very hard to come out of my mouth : "Please", "Sorry" and "Thank You".
- Plan ahead the 3 colored envelopes "Red, Yellow, White" that i had to do.
- Think of how to "Survive" in the NS
- Seeking more new knowledge from the library
- Strengthen my relationship with YH ( if possible )

Yep it's a long list... and it will take around 1 month to finish all this... if not... well.. i guess i am just another guy lost in this planet...
I had also been useing alot of "Maybe" , "Should I" and "Why" all this words recently... because i am unsure that what will happen...

PS: Yong Han... if you look closely into my eye... you will see this "unsure" feeling inside me... if you get to learnt what had aready teached you the past 1 month or so...

THIS IS THE LAST HOPE FOR YOU. BROTHER
James™
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Bzy...Bzy...

2007-05-25T21:22:00.000+08:00

So busy this days sia, dun even have time to blog... but finally found 1 day le...
I had make Pre-preparations for NS liao wor.... almost brought all the stuff for NS... Run, jogging, cycling.... etc... @ night, burnning up the remainding "energy" before you sleep is so shiok sia.... long time never feel so exhausted haha... my leg muscle are having cramps every time i take a step... haha...the day before yesterday went for night running till morning.... then yesterday went cycling till morning sia.... haha... what's next ?? swim the whole afternoon ? haha... maybe... get myself tanned at the same time.... hehe...so i rest 2 days le... tml contiune my activity again... actually today got cycling @ Pulu Ubin, but i didn't go... leg problem ar.....

Here are some pictures i took this past few days.... enjoy hehe...

The "Whatever" drink

haha... 5 Star buffet... a treat by my mum...

MY DAYS ARE COUNTING !!!
James™
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Casper's Pre-B'day Celebration

2007-05-17T01:30:00.000+08:00

Hello all... wah getting more and more lazy posting blog liao sia... haha... must change... must change hehe.... Today ( 16/05/07 ) just in case if you are wondering why am i awayes post the day before.... it's because i am too tired and awayes overslept till 1am then woke-up to find some food lol.... don't know why this days in the middle of the night i will get hungry one sia... so hungry that i can even hear my own stomach grow-ning... and it woke me up also.... weird.... tell me what's going wrong with me haiz....

Anyway today went to Kbox near AMK hub there with my brother and Casper just to celebrate Casper's B'day 1 day before or so... haha... we had a great time there... sing till "zhao sia" also still singing lol... end up all laughing... haha...

After we went to Kbox, we 3 went to AMK hub there eat Pepper Lunch... haha... here's a pic of him eatting happily...

haha... that's my Brother if you don't know ... oh ya i also brought this

Yep it's a special necklance.... hope this is the last one i gonna buy for anyone... really....

after that we went home le.... so tired ( and hungry now )... haha...

PLAY HARD BROTHER, EXAM's OVER !!!
James™
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Best Ramen in S'pore

2007-05-14T11:07:00.000+08:00

Hehe... Today (12/05/07) went to orchard plaza for their best ramen in Singapore !!! it cost only $12 and i and my brother thought that it cost $16 coz those people said that in forum... maybe $16 is with the price of the water ba... haha... ate the 1st Ramen... Shyro - dunno spell correct or not... its' nice wor... the soup is thick... the meat is generous-ly cutted big slice haha... here's some pic of it:

~~~Thanks to my brother's cam.~~~
Haha... look tastey huh ??? It is !!!... I and my brother will be back for soon haha... for the time being... just hope that we got time to go together.... oh ya... 1 more thing, the Shop only opens from 12pm - 2pm, and 6pm - 2am... haha... weird yeah ??? maybe all Jap restaurent open @ such a weird timming...

THANKS BROTHER
James™
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Stomach Problem...

2007-05-11T08:29:00.000+08:00

Argh!!! Today woke-up so eairly (6.00am) coz my stomach not really happy... bomb toliet almost 2 times liao lor in the morning nia... sian.... anyway i tried to upload the image for the past 30 mins and finally i got it !!! here's a pic that i took from my V3x at around 8am from my bedroom's window

Nice view huh ?? haha... anyway finally found out how to post images... hehe... oh ya yesterday got the Enlistment letter also... after the long wait... guess what... i didn't got in commandos, guards or even Combat Engineers !!! ARGH !!!! i want them -.- oh well, i got into 6th SIR (Singapore Infantry Regiment)... it's like worst nightmare came true loh... haha anyway i will try my best to enjoy there... not to mention trying to stay alife there... haha.... anyway it's a long day ahead... the weather is cooling now... i like it... hehe... that's for now... anything i will add later.

BROTHER AIM FOR THE MOON, EVEN IF YOU MISS YOU WILL LAND ON ONE OF THE STARS
James™
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Thinking Back

2007-05-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

I don't want to be a mentor to anyone... i just wanted to be your best friend... it feel... it feel terrible to made someone who is actually happy in their way of life more miserable... Sorry brother, i am not fit to be your mentor... please forgive me.

From bleach episode 32, i had learned that bonds are created tru friendship that lasted for several years, spending most of their time or moments together, and not lecturing each another...i am really sorry brother.

Please don't make me your mentor... i had no rights to change the way you are now since you are happy with the way you are living right now, why must i interfere with it then... haiz... felt so bad bro...

Thinking back the pass few days, you are not very confortable whenever i talk with you. I know that i didn't treat you as same level as me as in respect and all that... sorry brother, i know i am wrong. i should had just let you be what you wanna be and not restricting you to do or being something/someone else... once again sorry...

SORRY BROTHER
James™
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Shopping with my Brother

2007-05-08T20:18:00.000+08:00

Hey, today woke-up @ around 11.30am just because something had happen... I thought there is a fight going on... so i had to make preparations to go there.... but end up my brother solved it himself... cool huh ??? he did call me asking what to do... but i just advice him to hang on the situation 1st lor... while i was on the way to his school to talk to his teacher... the teacher also abit how to say... religious.. that's what i hate about her... got chance really gotta lecture that teacher... but he solved the problem before i was gonna to take taxi to his school...

Yep after that incident, went to CauseWay Point with him... talked alot about the incident lor... lol 1st we went to LJS there eat... then went to Swenson to eat Crumbles haha... then finally we reach the Food Mall to eat... lol eat alot hor... =x haha.... abit tired le... just went home from the walk walk with my brother @ Cwp... Thanks Brother... after what i told you yesterday, now then i know you trusted me more le... i can see it in your eyes brother, how i know? it's for you to find out =]

PS: I still dunno how to upload images >_< ... anyone can teach me ???

STUDY HARD BROTHER !
James™
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Long Lost Brother

2007-05-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

Today really happy to see my long lost Brother again... so long never see him le... *my tears(tears of joy) nearly went out when i saw him* and it's around 3 years le since i saw him face 2 face le lor... haiz... cannot blame wor... he stay @ AMK i stay @ MARS... you know it's far mah... somemore now pay adult fare le... no more 50cent trip le haiz... sad... how i wish i had a second house @ AMK wor... like that everyday can meet him out to play and chat le... is yet another day that i burned my pocket again.... well i think this is the last time i gonna get my pocket burned for this week but it's worth it.... haha went to watch Spiderman 3, a wooping 140 minutes ( 2 hours 20 mins ) movie !!!
This is all that happened today :

- went to Bishan buy 2 ticket for my Brother and me
- went to AMK Hub to take a walk
- saw Rui Xian ( My CO friend)
- wait for my brother till i almost become ice/statue
- finally -around 2.45pm- saw him with his 2 new secondary school friend (Casper and Sevester) * dunno spell correct or not
- went to Bishan to get 2 more tickets for his friend
- play arcade
- brought popcorn then went to the theater
- show end around 6.20pm
- 1 of his friend (Sevester) * dunno spell correct or not, went home first (Act guai) HaHa...
- went to the shop Xcraft to buy Temp spray for my Brother
- we 3 went to Swenson to eat - i ordered a Apple Crumble and my brother ordered a Chicken Bake Rice - total bill is $37.80
- paid $28 for the meal and chat for quite some time there although food finish... HaHaha...
- went home @ around 7.30pm

Hey brother, a few more things i wanna tell you if you are reading this blog...

Firstly, don't be so *blur* leah, you got brain one right, people ask you do this please use your brain to think 1st then do it or say you want it.
Secondly, one of your good friend ( i assume both is your good friend as there is no other people go ) is not really a good person... beware... i give you a hint le, don't say i don't didn't let you know...
Lastly, i am looking forward to meeting you again my cute little Brother...

WILL MISS YOU MY LONG LOST BROTHER
James™
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Old Friend Gathering

2007-05-03T01:55:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging finally... haha... it's been a long day for me tho... morning woke up then took a bath, and edited this wonderful layout recommanded by my Brother... haha, around 1.30pm take a nap then overslept... gone, actually meet Ming @ 2.15pm de but ahya... the weather so cooling... sleep awhile more also nvm one rite... haha..... then meet ming @ 2.30pm i think... lol so very late... haha...
But anyway, we reached vivo city le... along the way saw someone... haha don't know it's him or not so never call him... haha... went to the kopitiam there drink... then saw Andrew...
After Andrew came... which is around 3.30pm ? We had to wait till 6pm for that 2 aunti to come... call us meet @ Harborfront MRT station then never make it... kns... wait till so long lor.... haha... then i so sian liao i decided to go take a walk as i had been to vivocity the 3rd time nia... ( omg i am so "sua gu" haha, no-one go with me mah, so bored go alone... like some outcast sia... kns i hate that ) went to buy some Doughnuts * I think it's the 2nd best in Singapore, as there is long Q *....
Around 6pm... that 2 Aunti came... then we... nono that 2 aunti and her friend wanna go eat @ the Food Republic there... so very ex.... you know how much a bowl of laksa cost ??? it's a F-ing $6.90 !!! zomg... haha... should had taken pic of the menu.... "hmm will be posting images soon" .... haha... then nvm lo that 2 aunti + her friend and Andrew go buy ... rich fella huh ??? haha... must be...
Ming de gf came shortly after we reach the Food republic... then never eat lor... see them eat... haha... after they ate we go to this restaurent called "Eastern Swenson" the food there is wooping EX !!! lol... joke around about the fisherman's basket i ordered... saying that Singapore no fish izzit... haha.... after we ate... we go walk around then go home le... so tired... but very enjoying tho... pocket burned 1 big hole ar !!! haha... but nvm... as long as i am happy... it's ok = ]
It's getting late le... i had to go sleep liao... tml got to go watch movie with my Brother.... yeah ? long time no see Brother !!! i thought you are dead haha... nite all !!!

SWEET DREAMS BROTHERS
James™
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Hard Decision

2007-04-28T03:30:00.000+08:00

Hey... back blogging le... hope no one miss me haha... Yesterday ( 26/04/07 ) I and Jin Cai went to watch the show Turistas well it's M18 so he expectes it to be exciting lol but it turned out to be bloody, and somehow disguesting... haha... anyway it's nice show to watch (if you have the guts to finish watching the movie eye open wide) haha... after that went to eat somthing then take train go home le... oh ya... on my way back found some $$$... haha... HAPPY-go-LUCKY guy ??? you bet !!!

For today ( 27/04/07 ) it's kinna short...went to company office with SY to get the Time Sheet to record down... along the way, we talk about just about anything that come to our mind lol...so many things to chat about.... anyway SY is like my "ta ge" ... i think he don't know ba... but he's so much better then me... which makes me sometimes "admire " him sia =/ well i know 1 thing for sure... i will do my best to keep up with him !!!

Then i heard alot of things happen after since Last Sunday till today, now then i know that we got posted to different place for the Singtel Pre-paid Roadshow which is about $8/hr ... hmm after i heard it i sms to Seng asking that will he still work ?? haiz i think he also dun wanna work liao ba... so far... he and Xing Posted to ECP ( East Coast Park ) there sia... so far... so i think they quit, but as for me ? my place had changed from 23,26 Chander Road to Blk 668 Chander road while my another friend posted to Robinson road ? haiz... why must the person in charge seperate us all sia...!!!

After reading tru the E-mail that May sented, i noticed that Seng and Xing's name is not in the Weekend Staff List liao... did they quit ? i think so... I am still thinking , should i quit or not... haiz... aready lost moral after knowing that our group " Seng, Xing, YS and me " was seperated after the 1st roadshow @ Little India... then now that Seng and Xing quit... Really lost... lost in the decision on weather wanna quit or not... should i stay for the money or.... haiz so frustrated.... but i had to make this decision quick... this Sunday will be working again, but this time i am alone... haiz.......... This sux man... i hate this feeling !!! Anyway it's getting Late le... Nite All...

BROTHERS PLEASE MAKE MY DECISION TO QUIT OR NOT
James™
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Super Tired....

2007-04-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

Haha... today (22 April 07) super tired... now then got chance to blog lol.... woke up @ around 11.30am when seng call me to eat breakfast 10 mins later ( which is 11.40am or so)... but i still sleeping lol... after the call i wake up prepare liao then go to the coffeeshop meet seng and gou xing which is around 12pm+ liao... haha... no time to eat liao so i never buy my food... then go there... on the way to Little India Mrt station from Marsiling Mrt station, we 3 talk alot of thing macham 2 years never talk to each another liao... which is like only hmm 4 months never talk face to face aready ??? Haha... On the way there liao seng keep on saying the closer he reaching the place the more he don't feel like working liao haha... after we reached the Little India station we got lost sia... walk here walk there lol... use up around 30 mins find the place... but end up we found haha... reach there about 1.20pm liao.... 1.30pm must be there... 1st few hour till 3pm we do nth @ there sia... then one guy wear white T-shirt come to our place and want 3 person go other branch sia... lol so seng, gou xing and me go lo... haha... go to 2nd branch liao which is like 5 mins walk then @ there also do nothing.... give out prizes to those people who spin the wheel lol... after a few hours the another guy call us go outside Mustafa shopping center there help out which is so damm crowded sia... haha... work till so tired then somemore OT sia, haha... after work which is around 11pm we take train home lo... ate supper @ 167 when we reach Marsiling which is around 1.30am ba lol... then go home le... so tired and brain-dead haha.... but it's a fun job to have... hmm now then i know seng and i had something in common... haha want to know ? find out yourself... haha... anyways gtg liao it's 2.08am and i am still blogging... omgz.... Nitez...

REST WELL BROTHERS
James™
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Bad Hair-Day...

2007-04-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

Today woke-up at 12.30pm... Turn on the com... then put - afk - then went to bath awhile ( as you know i don't really like the smell of sweat after i wake up) haha... actually he wanna meet me at 1.30pm de... but i still play com.
After meet up with one of my bro for haircut and eat lunch ( The hairstylist was friendly, maybe i will recommand ppl go there ba haha)... can forget about breakfast liao... coz it's aready 1.30pm... then he came my house play my PS2... play till around 5.30pm le he say how i wish i can complete it... then i just say take home and play loh, don't spoil it can le... i trust you that you will return me the PS2... even if you don't want return also nvm one la... if you dun return then i come your house get loh, talking about going to your house.... erm... where you stay ar ??? ... haha... nvm ... i know you so long le, my trust is with you bro. Count yourself lucky ba bro, you know only a few of my friend can get permission to lent my PS2 or my things ?
Hmm at the moment thinking of tomorow activities liao... sure is a tireing day for me tomorow man... bleah haha... time to sleep liao... so tired le and it's aready 11pm !!! omg... ... Night...

Love You All Brothers
James™
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My very First Post

2007-04-17T16:14:00.001+08:00

Hey Yo.. this is my 1st post... Thanks for reading this... i know this blog sux - no Cbox, no mp3 player, no this no that - I am still working on the layout... give me a break k ??? just created this blog... what more can you expected...

There is questions which as been uttering around me for sometime le... and i finally got the answer...

Question :

What does being a best friend mean to you? What does someone have to do to become your best friend?

Answer :

A best-friend is someone that you tell everything.
someone you can't wait to see.
someone who would risk their life for you.
Best-friends are people who if they died, your life would feel useless and not needed.
Someone who youu can call at any time just because your cat died and they would stay on the phone with you until you stop crying.
someone that you can trust and can't see life without.
Someone who is needed not wanted.
A best-friend will love you as a friend no matter what.
You could be the geekiest, Ugliest, Dumbest person in the world and they would still be your friend.
A Best-friend is always there spiritually.
and someone you actually care about what they say.

Believe it or not it's somewhat true... well if you disagree, then find the answers yourself... eventually you will get almost the same answers as mine...
will be updating this blog soon... check back later..

ALL THE BEST BROTHERS
James™
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